#13: happy 2026!

 My dearest loveliest darlings!!!!! How I've missed writing to you! I've had so much going on this month that I haven't managed to write until now - I have so much to talk about, but I won't speak on everything as this release would be around 3x the length of a usual one, and quite frankly, I do not have the patience or long term memory for that. 

So like... happy new year?? I apologise for my eloquent writing style in this one, I fear I'm not used to writing the way I like anymore. I have my internship report to thank for that, yeah, the one I basically wrote and designed in a week and a half. Technically, I started writing at the start of the year, but work got in the way and I procrastinated - but I did somehow still manage to hand it in two days prior to the deadline, printed and all. I've also had some tests this week, but now I only have one left before the end of the semester, a short history test next Tuesday. I will say I haven't studied too much but I did research our topic so I can actually understand it before trying to blindly repeat whatever my textbook says. I'll be fine. 

my favourite picture from new years eve X)

© Lena Fleurie

I had a very nice Sunday today, and I have myself to thank for it: yesterday, I ranted to my close friend about my frustration with social media, doomscrolling, wasting my time, all of the above + more. Wasting the day when I not only have things to do but also things I want to do makes me sick, and I believe it is insanely inappropriate to normalise having screen times as high as everyone seems to have. So we made a plan. Today, I used an analog alarm clock to wake up and put my phone out to charge, did some sports, got ready to go out and take pictures for a photo exhibit at my work, then got back and cleaned my room, finished an assignment, studied, transferred my pictures, found my old iPod and put some music on it, cooked for myself - and THEN, around 18h, I checked my phone for the first time of the day. I don't think I've had a day this peaceful in years. I wrote a checklist for every function I use on my phone frequently and ways to replace it, I made my phone ugly and shuffled around my apps so I wouldn't find them, I left my phone at home when I went out, and I was genuinely so shocked at how much time I felt I had. No time was wasted, and even when I checked my phone, I only picked it up with purpose afterwards. I feel so at peace. As I write this, I am listening to Charm on my iPod in a clean room with an entire day of productivity behind me, and I think I can say that I did something today. If you get an opportunity to do this (you probably will), I can only encourage you to do so - I am hoping today makes history and I turn my life around. I have tried countless ways to get myself off my phone, but I found today that the best way for me to do it is to just start doing things, to put the phone somewhere I won't look, just to ignore it like you'd ignore someone that has hurt you as much as it has. Might leave my phone at home tomorrow, I have my subway ticket printed out, music on my iPod, and that really is all I need for school. 

one of the pictures I took on my cam today!

Besides that, I've been writing again, though still not as much as I'd prefer - but I fear I will never reach that frequency either way... I wrote a song called Poor Little Sara that might've changed everything I thought I knew about my writing style, and that's how it should be! I'd already been playing around with the drums at my work's recording studio, but last Friday, I started teaching myself some bass and now I can't stop playing. I guess I'm stepping in my mommas boots anyway, and I am totally okay with that. Cheers to whoever got that reference, I appreciate you!!!!

Anyway, I fear this is all I have to tell you for now, I've just been doing a lot for school and to be completely honest with you, January is not nearly my favourite month. But I will push through and I heard my sweet darling spring will return home soon! 

Have a nice week and see you in the next one (really this time...)!

Lots of love

x juno