#03: catching up with reality

 I am sitting on my bed listening to Dog Eared (still) as I write this. Today marks the last day of my first school phase at my new school and though it has been a long week, I'm really happy. I did my best at school and it has proven to be worth it, I already scored an 11 point grade in maths, so a B! To be honest, I was expecting it to be a worse grade, but I did study for it and it was an easy topic so I volunteered.

Since my last release, I've come a long way in feeling more grounded in this new life. I think going to proper classes gives me a kind of sense of stability as everything in my life is shifting, because many topics I already know are being repeated to give us a good foundation in our classes at the beginning of the semester. 

This week, like the last, has been jam-packed with appointments after school, which is already quite exhausting on its own, but this week there were more enjoyable ones, like going back to piano classes after a three month break or so, a singing lesson on Thursday and, well, an osteopathy appointment, but that's actually not too draining :) I feel a lot more settled in my class as well now, everyone has been amazing the whole time but now I actually feel like I'm getting to know everyone, I got to connect with a few more people I hadn't gotten to talk to properly yet and I keep being surprised how kind everyone is. I never felt this connected to my old class of six years and I've only been in this one a few weeks, it is kind of crazy what one common ground (ours being art) can do to form a little community. 

I finally redid my October playlist, but instead of making a whole new one, I just sorted out a bunch of songs from the first one I didn't like in the beginning. Turns out, I actually really like the vibe this way. I also stole some songs from a friend's October playlist (thanks Lena hehehe) because I loved her's so much I'm surprised I didn't just use that one for the rest of this month. I obviously didn't though, I take these monthly playlists very seriously - which is also why I've been suffering so much just because I didn't have a good one for a while. I got the idea from the same friend maybe a year and a half ago and I never went back, I used to be the kind of person to just have one ten hour long playlist and put that on shuffle for months at a time (I wish I was joking) but the monthly playlists help me evolve my music taste instead of always listening to the same stuff and locking myself in a comfort bubble. I actually really enjoy finding new music, but I often have to force myself to do so. 

Speaking of music though, I've finally been getting into my "Album of the Day" project a little bit again, I'm still not listening to a new one every day, but every other day is good enough for me, I'm a busy woman X)

I also managed to get myself out of the lingering writer's block, which has been smothering me for the past three months or so. Turns out, if you annoy yourself often enough, your brain actually gives up and just lets you write, I guess. I'm glad I kept trying, writing is my main outlet paired with journaling and I did both today (It's Friday as I'm writing this). Today was honestly quite a nice day, I again only had practical arts today and finished my study of a chess piece (still not sure which one it was). I really got hit by my executive disfunction problem like halfway through the day, but the girl next to me has ADHD as well and gave me some advice that really helped me motivate myself to keep going, which I am super grateful for. I'm really happy with how the end result turned out. 

Wednesday was the first day I really realised how autumnal it's gotten outside, I was really busy with school and somehow didn't even notice, but that evening I biked to my piano class and was enchanted as I always am by the colours of the trees. It has kind of a bittersweet undertone being this happy, I went back home the same way I always did after piano at my old school, for the past six years. Autumn feels so different when you're happy!!! Very glad I stuck around for this. 

Next week, my next internship phase starts and I am super excited. I'm gonna work on a little project in my businesses screen printing workshop, I'm making my friend and me and a few other people T-shirts - I would tell you what it is but it's a late birthday present and the birthday girl is probably reading this... I will be uploading pictures next time though! I do have to do some schoolwork in the next three weeks, I have a lot of tests and one presentation right after fall break, but I think I can manage. I'm hoping to take a trip to another city during the break as well to visit some friends and family and maybe just go explore a little on my own, but I do have to see how much work I have to do for school so I won't be crashing out when I go back to school. 

And though I'm excited to go back to work, for now it's the weekend and I need to recover from a lingering cold and reflect on two weeks worth of new information and most of all get back to creating. Getting out of writer's block marked the beginning of that, but I haven't been drawing at all and I have a crochet project, commissioned by a friend, to finish. Who knows, maybe I will finish that one and start another, or maybe I'll just resort to a lot of rest and a lot of tea. Either way, I have a feeling I'll have a good time and I hope you do too. 

Thank you for giving me your time and have a lovely weekend & a good start to the week!

Lots of love

x juno